You slip out when I’m stuck in my mind It was only brief but not meaningless Even if I don’t cry I carve my pain in order to assess Why couldn’t you just say goodbye? Told me I’m beautiful to violate my spirit Did you think that I’d cry? Took my flesh just to toy… Continue reading Just say Goodbye

So I was let go from my job on Mothers day of all days. I don’t know why my boss thought it would be better than just doing it at the end of my shift. Even doing it on Saturday for that matter. I really enjoyed my job and the people. On to the next… Continue reading Struggling a Bit

I decided to start paining to calm my nerves. It was harder than I thought. Especially when it came to doing the skin color. I thought they didn’t look too bad for my first go at it. I hope to do better the next go around. I was going to focus on doing the most… Continue reading Painting

So things are going well so far surprisingly. I actually got my car back! It was too much money for sure, but I have learned my lesson. I have never been really good at handling money. Shopping has been when of the many vices I have used for coping that is the least lethal, at… Continue reading Going Well

Well that picture pretty much sums up the last few weeks of my life. I appreciate all the love I have been getting from people since I started doing stuff on YouTube. I don’t even do that much, but I have had enough wonderful fantastic people reach out and leave wonderful comments. Sometimes it is… Continue reading Time To Grow

By. Iko Sada Now, all the same, I am suffocating. My pain marginalized by an exodus of unfortunate events. I’ve always been here screaming… I’ve always been here forgotten Left to suffer. Now my existence has been snuffed by the inconvenience of the time. Snuffed by the reality of our society’s vile mentality that is… Continue reading Equality of Despair

It has been a while since I have felt inspired to write. Here goes nothing: I once lived in a dream but woke up beneathPressure on my chest increasing as the soil soaks up my tearsBuried by the hate and cruelness of the worldForsaken by those meant to protect my existence As I pull myself… Continue reading Pretty Little Dead Girl

Draining of blood and grace she finally hit bottom A piece of trash, a beauty, a woman on the edge What was she to you? What did she do? Mangled and bloody she sits in her grave. Violated both mind and body she quickly decays. A legend in your own mind…. you got what you… Continue reading Discarded

I suppose that a post discussing going into the new year is a bit overdue, but I don’t like to write a blog post unless I feel like I have something of substance. Since 2017 began I am full of doubt and excitement. I of course look back on the last year and think about… Continue reading Reflection and Uncertainty

This is the girl… the one you approach with intentions that only cater to your ego. You speak so sweet to her. In all actuality, below her rough exterior she is just as kind as those words. Deep down she knows. Not oblivious to juvenile tactics constructed to satisfy others sexual desires, yet time and… Continue reading This is The Girl…